As much as I’ve had to do recently, it got me to thinking, which I never seem to stop doing. How have I managed to stay standing, let alone submissive. How do we, as submissives, go from being so dominante in our lives to submitting everything to another?
Through a particularly hectic day recently, when given a moment to breathe, all I could think about way my Master. He wasn’t there with me, and I felt something was missing. I am perfectly able to take control and make difficult decisions and make sure everything is taken care of. I am far from helpless. But, not having him there was very noticeable to me. When my thoughts started to drift, I wanted more than anything to submit. I needed him to be in control of me, and make me helpless and unable to make a choice. It was then that I had my epiphany!
I can do anything I set my mind to, but I get tired. In order to keep up the pace of being in control, I need little breaks of not being in control. Yes, I submit to my Master all day every day, but that isn’t always realistic. I certainly can’t stop and ask permission to use the bathroom at work, or if I’m allowed to do my job or how to handle the kids.
D/s is a wonderful life and I wouldn’t trade it for anything, it just doesn’t fit every second of every day. Sometimes even a sub needs to take charge. Most Doms (I would hope all) would be proud knowing their sub is able to take care of things without constant direction and they are capable people. I know Doms like being needed and having us there to submit to them, but it’s a good feeling knowing we are able to take care of ourselves from time to time.
As a sub I feel release and freedom when I’m permitted to submit to my Master. When I can just give up control to him and know that everything will still be ok. He will take care of me, and make sure I don’t have to make decisions. For me, I need that comfort, knowing that I don’t have to be in control.
While I’m still baffled as to how a Dom can keep their sanity remaining in control all the time, I’m endlessly grateful my Master can. His desire for control is what brings me peace and serenity. I can only hope that he knows how much I love and adore him. He makes me proud to belong to him. I don’t think I could ever thank him enough for giving me exactly what I need each day to help me keep going.
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